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itwhats purpose go school get job get wife kids grow old die death catches us matter amazing life live ive suicidal thoughts since like im senior year college least another ahead grad school want pediatric occupational therapy work special needs population whats fucking point family friends dropping left right healthiest people know getting cancer scummiest dwellers continue succeed really see purpose life anymore whole life ive pushed idea away family would heartbroken fuck cares anymore selfish act theres little ones home theyd get it work go numerous times week live fulfilled life seems utterly pointless maybe im missing something here many honestly say waste time energy look stars night helps realize fucking irrelevant one us bigger picture | 1 |
anyone san antonio want chillsome fucks work obliterated emotions tonight make worse work considering harrassment persay first time life get invited bar drink coworker whove ive grown like were leave ducks bathroom piss decide too enter coworker stall taking shit talking shit guy neither notice standing right there first guy calls creep accusses killing dog convinces guy invited ditch lying bar were going go somewhere else instead finishes shit exits notices me thing says well im going sugarcoat it whatever fuck means hes never expressed displeasure me caught talking shit making pretty bad rumour hit pretty hard since give dog recently save money also coming back houston people stayed went logs caught them lied explaining themselves called out actually bitched not giving enough info even though bought groceries open book failed ask anything oh yeah bitch reditor use dog thread asked advice investing house im fucking crushed want good friend here | 1 |
depressed several years ago thought ok seems come backlong story short fucked youth scarred pretty badly got shit together thought right track this years ago however lately past months so feeling horrible back point suicidal thoughts cannot talk people problems matter hard try tried several psychiatrists etc hate job get recognition anything do hours exhausting see change future applied several jobs reply qualified finance wise stuff going shitter well surprise costs makes savings like bucket hole it last euros moment luckily girlfriend but stupid know wrong dick towards her means well frustrations get irritated work her relationship tense weird thoughts dumping click anymore crying im alone thought leave sooner later nobody friends only drinking buddies family non existing due problemsissues first sentence feel lonely lot even though like alone really know going post apologies possible mistakes english first language sort weird back phase killing scare calms sort way knowing could end miserybe peace one little act | 1 |
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best way stop feelinghi ive suicidal roughly years hospitalized times since last visit actively trying improve genuinely started feel better shit hit fan life past several months ive feeling depressed suicidal sleeping become difficult lay bed sudden wave holy fuck need hits me deep dont want act thoughts want stop ive tried medication past made feel worse advice stop feeling constantly wanting drive car bridge thanks | 1 |
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two hollywoods great child stars elizabeth taylor mickey rooney perfectly teamed deliver one alltime family classics story determined year old girl whose adoration horses allow turn away goal win british nationals mickey rooney newly orphaned drifter looking tie follow dreamsbr br a beautiful side plot reveals girls mother ambitions young girl repeatedly overruling fathers decisions favor spirited daughter mother seems know best scene exhausted taylor rushes go school priceless father protests why let go school shell drop exhaustion noon worry shed back within half hour saturday brilliant technicolor sumptuous music score beautiful faces telling bittersweet story heres good reason old saying makem like anymore | 0 |
teacher rold believe problems always helping others happyi overdue important papers school wrote school counseling struggles thoughts message shared everyone school parents later oral exam french done person online lessons teacher like you like find want get back home talk people like really sorry hear mental health problems hard believe it teachers like come from always seem happy helping others problems around school even noticed one talks foundation students like really talk talk people let talk problems get lost little world really say anything myself present sad around people try help me give fake empathy kinda role started exam | 1 |
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cant handle itlet start saying im going hurt every time im feeling overwhelmed mind goes straight wanting myself wont it ive got much going it even slightest bit overwhelmed cant help start suicidal thoughts want stop dont know how cant even bring therapist ive got kids theyll report it itll turn problems need stop please help dont really want it seems like brain thinks answer problems | 1 |
really need friendi bpd course months ive gotten heart broken lost jobs dropped credit classes hospital got cut mother sister ive thought giving never follow dream family child specifically right im debating abandoning car walking natural selection think help help please | 1 |
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feeling overwhelmed tired lostim live mom disabled extremely mentally abusive manipulative think borderline personality disorder get help previous attempts failed chased away everyone lives even online friends currently engaged absolutely wonderful guy lives us im canadian take months year get marriage visa move there know happy light end tunnel keep feeling hopeless mom work income one me feel awful leaving her time seriously damaging me constantly attacks me gives guilt tripe threatens kick out file visa says leave keeps stuffeven end thw street months take much fiancee could lose job worried me cry time feel overwhelmed tried call engagement time seems impossible me keep pushing filing scared moms reaction feel like im failure daughter fiance friend person friends want hear problems anymore blame them ive stuck home situation since dad died years ago even really feel like fake happy fiance stops worrying something cant fix like taking healthy steps impossible cant afford meds last time counsellor involved mom caused many problems forced walk away me keep thinking killing myself know face next year new life cant bare think suffering cause love thought mom probably either disown me make process hell never stop harassing guilt trips part want come home work today start hour keep thinking turning phone nd disappearing ending life alone even know posting do ive helped people various aliases one else talk to sorry long whiny post | 1 |
feel worthless hated everyonein reality two friends talking rare rest people know me thinking weird poor not people tells satanist go church try make angry later tell aggressive hobby panic disorder might get panic attack day reasons live | 1 |
m turning soon delete nudes girls eyes fucking weird post also typed phone theres probably spelling errors also forgive weird name made quick account ask questions ap exams shit online site actually seemed aight kept it basically gathered bunch nudes girls high school im still high school im senior year dont really know originally started collected turned competition friends far ish nudes friends arent arent deleting dont wanna delete cuz kinda holds sentimental value difficulty keeping sent principal every week checking phone friends send different phones make multiple snapchat accounts drugs issue tho dumbass friends kept pics weed dab pens dorm room im boarding school anyways dont even like jack anything like cuz competition go fuck ton shit these also like chad move kind know also got consentually like others came friends became competition in total definitely also arent different girls pic girls might know im gonna get downvoted shit ton cuz seems like fucked thing normal person fair is want advice someone isnt friend group wouldnt judgmental | 0 |
im ending tuesdayeveryone subreddit suffered alot me ive read stories abuse abandonment etc makes feel weak shitty reasons life ive happy child genuinely times parents suffered severe eczema toddler years old despite bullying ew ugly boy remarks pretty girls school fact bottom classes genuinely stupid everything seemed fine however recent years ive pushed edge developed bad anxiety hate meeting anybody even family live with it never know stand sit talk look point worth going effort anyone all got point began hallucinate auditory visual fears hid years im wierd af avoid bullying knew would emerge hid aspects created boring teenage character talk avoid mistakes hung losers school avoid get attention others listened rap others did existential crap started happening began realise life whole point meaning whatsoever let alone individual stupid little person im things getting even worse earlier parents found cutting myself freaked out mum got pissed beyond imagination ended getting help psychologists psychiatrists thought would change me would come completely fine didnt even expensive highly recommended psychologist help somehow avoid wasting parents money put happy face pretended got better stop treatment major exams coming revised shit ive sat home played video games constantly broke crying skipped necessary work day even somehow manage stumble past exams good grades future interests know barely take hour work let alone required levels let alone work whole life im bit pathetic really asked hobbies are thing say playing video games forget world means escape lie people want engineer doctor shut up ive tried getting interested topics good always end thinking useless cant bothered research anything make worse go private school everyone around achieves really high parents im always failure top know im monster ive never helped anybody mum dad love bits still snap everyday lie time internal frustration im pretty sure dad aspergers infact kinda obvious selfish evil upmost despicable thing me hate him hate hes different wierd hate fact genes within hate fact married mum made life miserable forced born whenever try communicate friends end toxic never bother talking anymore never get girlfriend want one know ill ruin life much ive ruined own lived till long afraid afterlife religion forced upon sense leave grew older fear the punishment redflag always stopped me im longer pussy end hell it deserve anyways | 1 |
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emotional person feel may need talking about mredflag answer something reminding myself problem something remind myself posted got great advice feel maybe address correct issue alive seeming enticing like work school never liked school know nothing anything usless material like video games magic gathering know ky family loves religion really esqued thinking how know love something must grant everyone let religion control without it know am tried discover avail ranting now need help | 1 |
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cant stand mother school deserve deathmy mom angry person always back everything even enjoy couple moments video games yells me dont anything upset her good grades school good friends see school going home feels shitty now nowhere else go im done hanging out must go home mom yells me even nothing wrong explain myself wont ever listen im trapped nothing good right now want enjoy life like normal person cant mom yells often everything im sorry whatever do brother never yelled at always am hate yelled everything may well end myself dont know solve anything angry immensely selfish too asks everything her going somebodies place dont even know say feel uncomfortable get yelled at blames mother everything does mother angry own looked kill myself app uses lets see everything phone allowed see look kill myself yell me made her concern wanting kill myself want get help cant handle living her considering much treats like shit im done dont want live insignificant waste life nothing matters future anyways might well kill mother live painful emotional scar haunt rest life making feel like worthless trash hate school well want exist please teacher get thrown life helping nothing work replaced far future hate much everything dont know so | 1 |
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year half since last tried kill myselflong story short ive severely suicidal since graduated college even that im honest constantly inpatient years recent attempt landed icu three days seizure like brain activity breathing tube shoved throat one worse experiences life really sucks im feeling suicidal again really dont want put family something like again thought past bullshit | 1 |
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advice boys boy tokyo drift saw two prior posts advice boysthey nailed it thought id throw hat ring story list advice theres still valuable lesson share anyways story tale begins mid december last year covid unheard of people looking new year excitement optimism working stage crew member schools production one day one breaks sitting alone flicking phone mindlessly girl sitting friends called over started asking questions hobbies were subjects did etc while left tasks teacher time really confused this barely spoken before later evening realized saw sitting myself assumed lonely called over small act kindness stuck me im certain im gonna remember rest life time watch news lose hope humanity remember kindness girl showed me moral storythis applies everyone boys girls everyone inbetween idea much tiny act kindness help someone | 0 |
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straw broke camels backlife one big pile misery me year especially hell severe social anxiety communicating people hard finding people feel comfortable around even harder even know normal conversation without awkwardness silences used three friends would actually talk hang with lost year anyone left talk feel comfortable around lonely depressed graduated cant seem find job good would like do hate everything current job whats point going work everyday hate family provide anyways even friends going spend money basically something hate survive even want discovered today receding hairline used think bad hair days lately started occurring more today realized got shit hairline losing hair twenty fucking four one family bald bad hairline like me used kind good looking basically thing holding to thought would maybe meet girl someday liked looked would look past social anxiety inability connect people actually take time get know me now im physically repulsive too one ever love like me goodbye | 1 |
awkward umm female classmate came house know nothing herand first thing shes house homeworkso enter room play switchbut im scared thinks impolite thatand rlly dont feel comfortable havent said single wordi dunno | 0 |
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storyi half native half vietnamese canadian father vietnam war refugee mothers mom residential school survivor intergenerational trauma caused personality disorder insomnia depression anxiety ptsd grew two pedophiles simultaneously one side family wanted nothing heritages this dealt car accidents sexual harassment workplaces rapes vietnam family friends justice system abandoned me still yearn reconciliation however spite this choose understand forgive love | 1 |
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want die pain go away never good enough even know job best mother still screams thinks mentally retarded feel miserable pathetic | 1 |
tried kill last nighti sitting patio imagining walking intersection could see there sudden compulsion walk there did standing sidewalk watching cars pass by almost daring walk front one also getting frustrated none going fast enough kill me minutes this broke crying punched wooden post frustration making knuckles bleed cried sidewalk while feel like shit wanted die bring it im stuck still | 1 |
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good ideai thought killing every day while combination drugs unprescribed want them also want safe environment stabilize ive think going mental institution good idea fmla cover work days miss | 1 |
waking morning getting harder harder career place job takes huge hit mental illnessi wake early go work every single day dread dead end job deal stupidest customers every single day cant quit cause need money dont money cant move go school dont even make enough save ive looked jobs one hiring social life joke friends one talk to sometimes feel like killing would stop thoughts head think family would react | 1 |
funny thing mom friends europe one time talking childhoods communist countries weird ways vacations mentiones gypsies got hear rendition opinions gypsies one romanian | 0 |
something woman man cannot involve sexualityi thinking putting raskwomen worried breaking rules im ftm transgender closet im desperate find theres something stupid body defile even further please something womans body mans cannot involve sexualitypregnancy orgasms flirting etc making dumb excuses get situationsblame pms something acknowledges weaknessgetting help street woman refuses get pregnant even purpose world causes much unnecessary sufferingthe reason could think someone would go things like female puberty pregnancy love babies us love purpose something man cant well better research yet find single thing | 1 |
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dont even know say girlfriend last night party slept next first time dating amazing girl extremely drunk night drunk sad personal issues basically sober helped night spooning night holding tight remember trying make feel safe wake morning day today avoiding me today talked told night touching boobs kept pushing away also told moaned night extremely uncomfortable dont remember anything happened thought asleep however says awake intentionally her feel like absolute dog shit wants take break dont know feel extremely guilty bad confused cant believe thing love girl want happy feel disgusted thing find hard believe could something like want back advice reddit begging | 0 |
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nothings going right me still waitingnothings going right nothing ever fucking will want die id kill tonight bothered get bed | 1 |
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im disgusted myselfim disgusted self want kill whine im going isnt even bad many others much worse still move | 1 |
tired everything going through unmotivated want life end thing keeping alive material purchases give temporary happiness distracting playing shooter games daymy ex keeps popping life kills me distraught keep knows hurts much went crazy emailed like accounts begging unblock simultaneously telling never talk again extra suicidal unhinged really want kill front him thinking months nowi started taking mood stabilizers two days ago sick everything think hold long enough see meds helps me dropped useless therapist last week toohow stay away someone bad also makes happy want die sleep | 1 |
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want stay room forever playing video games watching anime living for life hell outside that left die love friends parents worrying money homeless time what suffer life hurts much | 1 |
thinking killing last daysi thoughts recently getting arguments girlfriend parents secret relationship told beginning good idea talk parents disagreed dumb kept secret relationship secret part love girlfriend mom took phone read messages sending last days girlfriend said deleting everything found lie parents said stay away contact her im home think hanging myself ive tried hard last year feels like slap face im tried life crapping matter hard try seem good enough world idk im lose feel like option end point | 1 |
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toxic relationship suicidal thoughts aftermath idk doi dont usually speak whats going life really go online tell anyone anything personal myself im usually reclusive try let life continue lately ive felt like im very dark place ive told opening forum help least help opening feel something read guess well ampxb heres big one ive never honest myself entire life battled sexuality gay straight bisexual ive bounced around entire life ive never chance explore gain comfort might be ive always relationship felt like wrong gender years ago found furry fandom accepting people felt home short started causes gaps life friends looking weird family asking questions clear never opened furry anyway hide directed me like sexuality lifestyle hobby people could relate too slowly faded away want friends family calling weirdo hid it still look lot art use help find comfort might be even begin start this year long relationship partner ftm early process hormones anything yet started dating still going well say lindsey first love nothing stopped us wanted together puppy dog stage strongest awhile fell apart partner struggled faithfulness lot relationship primarily internet friends also furry internet big part lives means internet friendships play big part well hard time remembering privateclosed relationship within first years th th year began make internet relationships making mistakes fueled mostly spite also begging attention anyone th year took break currently lived washington i taking care sick mother decided return california first week stopped talking one day sent message something forgotten me kept talking that began breakdown emotionally mother falling ill loneliness sudden change lifestyle year relationship began regret choices talked things end asked could try again distance try fixing things distance us test waters things come agreed began talking day night calls intimate videos shared still felt strong love other as year relationship you seemed like things getting better slowly months eventually moved california mother care equipped family hard first managed however never really talked months apart even though talked often lot days went without text call asked usually told family busy something eventually refusal talk happen time drew rift us one day shower decided pick phone browse chat histories time period look messages social media accounts went ultimate snoop found everything could month time sent nudes countless men stand wanted fun once lied multiple times sex another man countless times texting inbetween hours together im sick writing it remembering it but haunted years found out fought days nonstop think would mark end relationship right well no justified saying hurt break wanted get back breaking her and like idiot agreed her took blame convinced sex man me deserved abuse forced us take break ive struggled depression entire life ive never months time without feeling creep way life usually triggered something anything could big could small never really know happens fought feeling two years peroidic episodes accusing lindsey terrified would cheat again idk stayed guilt fast forward years weve together years total hate myself everything me annoy ones care cant stop talking idk why excitement eagerness ive never really known get carried away people tell jerk taking lighthearted teasing far without realizing feeling embarrassed hours even notice ass attitude towards life soured im often irritable upset roommates unreasonably dont much good say anything anymore ive gotten bad enough people around speak it used attractive cared appearance excited show off but ive gained lot weight last year nearly pounds nearing pounds even ive never disgusted myself problem im upset eat habit forever lot people im sure stop im paying it stopped wearing favorite clothes stopped taking shirt public stopped making video calls cant stand might look im constantly paranoid shell cheat again ask questions go silent ruin entire days frustration did every fight would break up get upperhand never true maybe days week spend together laugh two miserable know it cant let go coronavirus locked home last months straight ive left handful times supplies overall ive anxious leave house im scared getting sick ive depressed relationship lost job live unemployment sit around waiting next day shes picked social media again talking people hours plays apex legends every single day someone met online someone talks hours hours bed dinner everywhere never explains anything tells wants social life again stays almost year lost friends bad attitude family learned im questioning sexuality i dont know how cut entirely spend time waking am smoking weed every minutes sitting bedroom pm taking sleep aide fall asleep ive suffered nightmares regularly last year dont know anymore ive lost feeling im nub everything feel like husk autopilot thats breath air ive lost touch myself ive felt mental health suffer dont know how cant even describe whats happening anymore weeks ago sat car wondered could use kill without hurting others dont gun lindsey came garage wanting smoke weed seen sitting car trance focused dashboard staring nothing told truth without meaning too slipped accident coming whatever stuck in response was passive encourage me but didnt anything help time either laid bed hours thinking little seemed mean her little seemed mean her everyone ampxb dont even know wrote this hoped maybe saying myself typing out maybe could stop myself feel like inevitable eventually today broke again mean it idk ive sitting box days wondering theyre gone good time left read ignored entirely dont know anymore feel like control taking life dont want fight anymore dont want suffer dont want keep going everything ugly life race wars virus scares gays hated again conservatives rioting sexuality never got experience years whats point continuing life never even start write entire story attention forum people real problems im sorry post even here know else 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time leave worldanother update recent depression spree girlfriend officially left me longer loves me going me parents told today leaving weekend decided kill gone choosing charcoal inhalation way go out think anyone stop feel free ask questions fortunate update thanks inspiring words guys go although one night ex called tears sadness sat bathroom almost ended it got it friends last night even though cant talk problems due pride able ignore problems good amount weekend thank again | 1 |
first world problemshi always redflag understood people miserable feel like way out thought pretty sad living organism main goal survival depressed start going natural instincts terrifying lately started facing problems chose wrong college made life lot harder be mental completely went downhill past months im currently trying transfer also bright side met girl im currently dating love lot great also fights going college too may go different one kills me seems like like much anymore couldve avoided smarter college decisions feel suicidal mornings usually honestly want end life know peoples lives harder sound like privileged fucking piece shit realized lot harder kill thought would be seems like painless ways painless hard accomplish comment good ways end whatever | 1 |
anyone says people care liarsi hate phrase much one ever cared life hate cared for would problems first place would irl friends girlfriend no ive never either im freaking meanwhile many people age younger already life set them already dates time lives meanwhile everyone else world preventing things even parents cared pusses say want kill people go dont it cause pain others wont one even fucking cares first place never | 1 |
strange cant contact therapists koreain korea people unawaware therapists practise play candles herbs thus lack psychological knowledge means therapists somewhere psychiatric docs stubborn counselors since psychology still taboo snob psychiatric docs diagnose pills want moneys conservative cpunselors try correct people others neither lgbtq friendly since snob try correct people lastly right mad people try correct person try mad want use insanity fuel | 1 |
stalemateim m soon turning nothing show myself lost friends last year told depression suicidal ideation years ago nothing changed till last year finally cut off understand them constantly negative havent moving forward years everybody else has inferior regards anyone used friends with year socially isolated outside spent whole sitting front computer time times went get food job prospects future aimlessly attended university years switching majors nothing came it late start apprenticeship field like everything competitive inferior human like me constantly asking even apply apprenticeships anyone would want hire somebody like struggled mental illness since years old year old happy human applying job am course know mental state tell way lying last aimless years way making sound rather positive negative cv worthless many gaps due mental illness want work cleaning person want work assembly line feel like option succeed working world would start kind business self employed since chances slim get anywhere corporate world know certainly thick skin kind adventure thought getting help time answer anything always within oneself change better could start take ssris again talk therapist listen things again help me could submit psychiatric ward would doctors give benzodiazepines make sure going kill myself fucked everything depression inferiority complex never strong enough pull through top selffulfilling prophecy everything dull ive tried kms twice one time cutting i stopped hurt much ugly scars forearm one time taking mg lorazepam pills unfortunately sent hour sleep coma researching everything redflag methods know end life decapitation train seems best option although id prefer shotgun since guns illegal live germany possibility know certain never able ditch inferiority complex last years soul heart become bitter core become addicted smoking weed cigarettes cleanse would also take time anymore almost year old male mental illnesses enough skills compete workplace cm help go anywhere helps strengthen beliefs unnecessary disposable friends left also point trying anymore run money support end february also day birthday think seen enough say least leave life good memories | 1 |
oh heres something funny happened couple days ago school changing classes from nd block rd block hallway smelt bad like really bad smelled like shit know couldve caused quite bothersome next day girl class said brother bought liquid shit internet put vents something | 0 |
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seems like woken today knowing thinking full clarity sitting desk thinking mistakes made feel calm scared lost everything lead fault manipulative second language hurt people meant everything me marriage failed held tight needed let go words say apologize take back pain caused suffocating eventually cheating her still crosses mind everyday even relationship tried everything right failed inherently bad person gaslighting without even knowing made miserable point fight air lungs get away ill never know make right you hope someday forgive meeven joined navy sense normalcy life messed left little pocket meant to stay awake night suffocating memories almost dying hope morning light bring life every part knows situation would pain now terrible person know deserve happiness life calm knowing calm knowing everything end somehow lowest ever felt also calmest ever felt anyone takes time read this thank you everything end | 1 |
health related m lately ive feeling shortness breath heavy breathing prominent lay straight back bed started happening days ago like since going go doc tomorrow anyone knows symptom cause | 0 |
sick constantly wanting diei mean like people forum want die constantly even happy want die sick always feeling tired feeling like life mine work three jobs taking part graduate school best friend love much constantly feel like emotionally babysit boyfriend love honestly cant feel comfortable with fear abandoning makes hard relax enjoy relationship lost two best friends cant seem get forget father supportive parent life cancer mother complete cnt manages make feel guilty existing despite knowing full well damaged relationship fault fear friends really hate putting me feel like school worth it im busy time go see doctor therapist go gym exercise makes people feel better sometimes despite jobs money problems almost zero time want die im scared dying painfully want die peacefully hate waking up want feel way | 1 |
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hate subconscious dreams dreams ever seem remember incredibly lucid dreams girls like problem didnt feel real whenever get one im always wondering real wake up awful recent one last night details little hazy ill best remember im crush friends forget really important afterwards go house group disperses crush waiting parents come get her starts telling medical episode recently highly likely condition causes death basically lie april point tells scared know do moves were couch way put around slump over point basically lying top me says stuff remember wake up apparently hugging myself theyre usually sad normally theyre pretty happy cool overly realistic im loser whos never girlfriend before know talk girls guess ive felt really empty really quarantine going on able see anyone go school helped well thats now stay safe everyone | 0 |
reason get besides going workive struggling depression since fall last year awhile ok felt like going get go back happy care free self sometime early june contracted herpes genital oral gave overwhelming sense hopelessness along feel need try romantic relationships anymore want tell anyone herpes slept hours today reason wake up everyday work thing keeps killing badly think would affect mom sister words encouragement would much appreciated | 1 |
whos committed spouseive done wife twice life feeling bit guilty done three time voluntarily totally foreign involuntarily always seems much worse times signed up mostly addiction issues times committed here suicidal despondentacting unusual spoke phone seems scared actually much lucid would love perspective other side someone committed spouse felt right wrong thing them | 1 |
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got lead know feel week ago started talking old friend invited friends discord server started talking bit developed crush one night decide ask wanted go out surprise says yes decide start dating going meet couple days first date but two days date get text saying ready relationship go back friends im really sure feel right really know happened fuck up fuck up get unlucky know im experienced dating seems odd im really upset turned vent issues attempt understand | 0 |
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photography editing movie exceptional time period eisenstein builds upon scene movie leading sailors revolt massacre town much movie high point cinema also example szocialist realism soviet government actively used arts including film means spread message revolution eisensteins portrayal revolt battleship potempkin offers viewer insight message soviet elite marxist theory perspectives class struggle demonstrated sailors represent oppressed workers officers represent elite society much film demonstrates communist party message film used tool propaganda | 0 |
running man viciously lampoons modernday american media complex hits target deadcenter may easy target pull none less rm effortless takes prowrestling featuring pro wrestlers hunters network television nielsen ratings american government suggesting entertainmentoriented anyway crime punishment halfdozen things along way far cry original stephen king novella arnold ben richards novella either cares basically arnie flick wellchoreographed action sequences oneliners undertaking requires | 0 |
im glad go todaycompletely shattered recent breakup woke morning called work plan get little affairs order bills rent get drunk take pills ive collecting hang myself close friend town san fransisco gave guilt trip always town went spent night three closest friends im sure know much mean me ive told think really understand saved life tonight even know it first time ive truly smiled weeks thank a j c love you | 1 |
want diei many could wish for apartment share friends one best friends many friends truly care go way take care me parents love support however can two sisters consider friends poor ive love before yet feel despair sadness perpetually keep telling going build life stop lying myself want here ive hurt people past shouldnt get thrive thought could good world remedy past much suffering cant save everyone though wish could want die dont want see suffering dont want cause suffering think forgiven past dealings suicidal ideation since young attempted redflag before survived last attempt chance alone time plan jumping bridge feels guaranteed know family friends distraught suffer also see good come it life one live anymore harm anyone else plan ending soon want die believe god afterlife pray leave behind pray find happiness live lives better could hope make better choices faced decision selfish hope instead make choice help fellow man instead | 1 |
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husband m got married years ago happy together fairly dark mental career states met work found happiness left work place successful place new career new city enjoy things work success place family husband got new seasonal job place used work lives best friends town hour drive away hes loving every minute new duties new coworkers amazing boss loves place is damn happy him really fills heart talk phone visit him see thrilled hes amazing gift us both means living alone weeks since left comes visit every weekends found time enough energy even put plates empty dishwasher put wrappers trash empty overflowing recycling pick dog shit yard time must strength vacuum wipe counters laundry etc many friends new city back old work husband is like coworkers far younger necessarily see eye eye everything spend time alone walked dog weeks play back yard house extremely messy standards depression pit hes coming home week days picking place suddenly energy hide shameful mess make space welcoming him kitchen clean yard picked up sheets fresh trash empty feels good clean cannot myself cannot get enough energy little things every night keep house like this instead know housekeeping chores get mad energy it makes want hide world go crawl bed watch crappy youtube videos instead get energy take care yourself realized little value myself ill bend backwards everyone else make happy cannot even gather energy toss garbage alone | 1 |
redflag hotlinei need call hotline im scared call police anybody know contact police every call somebody immediate danger also help worth time | 1 |
know anymorehonestly really know write this ive never spoken emotions guess wanted tell someone feel im m ive felt like killing now feel like im letting everyone meet family accomplished things mom dad high ranking military brother got prestigious nasa scholarship im shit school fail half classes take thing feel like deserve feel do born good family lot friends reason kill people around me feel like killed family friends would disappointed want people remember like that wish could sacrifice save someone give life someone needs it ive looked organ donation know ill last long know ill point sorry long confusing writing mind thanks | 1 |
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