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im currently first kiss gf lost vcard normal ppl around less least one things yet could possibly lonely rest life

think would best way commit redflagi thinking noose like cutting veins open blood seeps cuts pass pain blood loss thats me opinions best way force soul body let know

shave hair off im kinda tempted buzz hair rn im tired it yall think full send buzz no cause im pretty sure itll look horrible also never done idek

reason im suicidal sex lifei sexually dead cant honest anyone hurts much core reason cant bear living want know sexuality want kind identity want actually live

accidentally wrote suicidal monologueive real bitch panic attack tonight kind went trance wrote this im afraid tell thoughts best friend need someone see them would gun im afraid poison practice see many ibuprofen pills swallow gives much time reconsider indecisive gun quick im good making fast irrational emotionally driven decisions know could kill bullet slitting wrists low success rate considering ive never succeeded anything whole life dont feel confident id succeed that could take pills maybe dont swallow many higher success rate ive looked barbiturates think thats marylin monroe used although illegal ordering online sounds scary difficult could never hang myself wont let someone find like thought scary gives chills im hoping gun face still tact back head feel eager throw away life like trash im romantic still want body found beautiful like fallen angel snow white think found remembered kill wont able see that ill gone dont get leave come back one life people may think back fondly anything mark painful memory everyones mind dont want painful memory lost loved one want love want make people feel loved want good things help people fuck sadness hard feel weak dont feel like guess could continue like dont know long handle doesnt get better dont know make get better

years lowkey dictatorship ruling party country finally lost election finally freedom couldnt happy cant sleep excitement years old whole life single regime president announced man year organise crime corruption occrp stole billions upon billions dollars country closed almost every factory country almost comletelly crushed hopes dreams cried happiness pure joy tonight guys means much wouldnt believe

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evil thing bring water fight mine would white phosphorus dissolved copper sulfate moment liquid evaporates phosphorus would stick persons clothing catch fire since ignite upon contact oxygen engulfing person flames toxic fumes

mum wants houseobviously extra expletives interspersed here crux shouting wouldnt mind thought id done well today looked asd brother hours made stew coming work spent four hours fixing washing machine getting numerous cuts probably need tetanus jab blazing row erupted wanted wash morning announced last night apparently need mind reader sister also unaware nevertheless cut bath ten minutes could wallow hour perhaps im shallow wanted least thank unpaid labour id given instead hear im lazy freeloader disappointment need leave bear mind physical disability makes moving lower body impossible unless want agony every step spoiler alert it according her im actually depressed instead simply make rest household depressed wants out lack trying behalf last attempt thought huffing reality id collapsed kitchen am dragging bed spent next twelve hours vomiting overdose time ive gone different ive taken crazy pills should downed bottle two wine attacked wrist injected units slow acting insulin tomorrow night hopefully problems disappeared

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please dear godmercy kill theres gonna lot suffering future lot hurt bitterness hopelessness stay alive cant family killing pray get terminal illness die naturally someone shoots blow up im also scared commit redflag myself please

im going kill myself afraid people talked online dating sites remember face appears newsi severe ocd maybe thats im worried this could really use reassurance please going sound extremely paranoid crazy please bear talk sense me need it im going kill year chronic illness briefly stupidly thought i want go first date kill myself made online dating profile talked several guys sent pictures face several messages maybe guys saw looked like they know name saw many pictures face easily recognizable face ive told lived state me ampxb way im going kill involves jumping building busy city im afraid images face going go news as jumping redflags state almost all theyre going recognize am talk friends much worse post online like i talked girl okcupid killed herself theyre going think killed dating troubles something trivial like that theyre going talk website like i talked girl everyones going remember like that like theyre going type name first thing thats going come online dating profile year died could resist someone want that guys talked chan culture etc active online never actually met them im scared theyll post site heck it want im remembered why im embarrassed it anything really anything embarrassing people remembering girl online dating profile committed redflag im going remembered im going come people google search name want illness struggles stupid online dating thing ampxb know sounds paranoid insane please help me really bothering ruining day please comment dont kill yourself ive made mind im want im immortalized by embarrassing all knowledge really help me want talked online die friendsrelativesstrangersanyone typing name seeing that want legacy

good advice gave become cursei made post another account years ago saying get girlfriend alot things like that guy made big comment stuff said big advice gave look girlfriend try build confidence first get career get money go gym clean first tried followed advice successfully avoided women much could get tempted ask out saw girl approaching would try avoid her still use advice even though know ive basically completed advice maybe girls like like instinct avoid girls cursed never love

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school still closed long time teacher told class whole situation probably school stay closed couple months still said school open provide safe environment students thats case moment options school discussing are split classeswould help lot not whole school break timelogical sence mask mandated classsome people bla bla bla people dont use common sence sadly provide stuff protection corona etci dont think costs according teacher take weeks someone makes decision everything take like months happy online school way better home cheat tests

theres reason live life severely socially anxioushumans social animals need socialize need friends relationships im friends really care me ive never relationship completely wasted away teen years zero memories scared anything completely useless skipped life experiences get fucked genetically enough im also trans fantastic transitioning totally doable process cant even fucking buy groceries without almost dying cant get profesional help because again thats social interaction difficult one that even want get better like even enjoy living sleep cut watch youtube ocassionally drink im studying fucking hate im horrible it also fucked future career fuck it dug hole theres way get it

goodbyei dont know anymoreim spill every detail life hereso long story short cannot anymore ive stopped cutting long long time ago reason today broke shiny new razor blade think may done damage judging size puddle ive producedbut question iswhy even go help time nothing lefti feel fuzzy warm almostdespite fact arm becoming increasingly cold guess wanted say goodbye since one else listens

anyone else wanna die even though circumstances really arent badam one really wants kick bucket because sure loneliness isolation makes harder honestly dont believe utopian future solve problems often think unrealistic future might even help depression alone this

jimmy trying kill ever since asked mom fat ass saying truethe best questions go unanswered

know this live every day perhaps send good words other team depression sucks

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unbelievably close real life feelings emotions captured joseph mazzello hemophiliac child affected aids new young neighbor wannabe tough redneck played perfection brad renfro although story may seem slightly farfetched the two boys attempt riverraft several hundred miles find doctor claims cure aids emotion actions interactions characters involved tragically close real life big brother boy similar situation died years film released strongly recommend picture anyone ever wondered really happens life child aids superb direction peter horton creates perfect mood setting scene draws viewer various emotions affected friendship illness prejudice final parting two friends fought hard overcome adversity

dont got many friends feeling good common taught sense less friendsyou ought depressed annoying sometimes still gets feel quite happy

want end iti really do never amount anything let die

another update received two messages random women yesterday turns boyfriendabuser cheating me surprising point one them went get us food home son paid womans familys meal got number asking drinks every couple days sent screen shots conversations said the ring gave simply gift woman carrying child rocky relationship see us anything coparenting said i work well crazy

suicidal thoughts getting closer closer attempti hope means go psychiatric facility painful live need safe space

tell things wish someone would tell youi always see posts reddit similar ones always tell people things wish someone said me tell things wish someone said you

lost fucking mind getting worsei dont fit anywhere anymore im losing friends year dad unemployed jaded beyond belief dont know earth life ended like used felt feel pressure angles dont know fucking trust cant open up dont know whats worth fighting for want old back impossible dont think anyone realises depressed mind ive ruined chances love feel like becomming like cowardly cunt used oppositte lost beyond belief

feel like dont place worldtoday rough ive struggled years due narcissistic parents bullied experiencing childhood sexual assault ive carried scars past years ive never able move past it ive started therapy recently feel like im broken even attempt get help ive struggled speaking up assertive setting boundaries trusting people majority life dont see could value world self confidence self esteem self worth feel stupid immature incompetent compared friends coworkers people around me people tell self confidence constantly tell work seriously dont try things im used ignored one take interest thoughts never anyone believe me hard would world better without me compare much everyone work feel lost

emergency im worriedhey all long time lurker first time poster years ive commented posts shared strategies generally helped felt could however first time podium im ive suicidal like years know tricks even gotten point feel episode coming prepare properly anyway month loose seasonal job and break lack success stuff feel real dark periods like weeks away time something weird happening im scared normally idea might finally fills dread brain completes checklist consequences anxiety bubbles freak out recently though feels great anxious situation thinking leaving like breathing holding hours like im finally getting permission relax before im burdened ideas hurting family friends peers brain accepts moves on days thought redflag zen thing world im immediate danger happen next week ive fought thing bunch times think im starting make peace fact last fight might coming weird thing like anyone else similiar place before let know ps community awesome darkest episodes amazing see people thinking way me lets keep shit up

calmness deathwhy feel wrong calm right now im alone home minutes away ending life without leaving single letter behind fucking fail dont even know anymore screw that wont fail dont know im typing anymore even know loved life loved living love all wishing best you

thinking would kill suicidalstruggled depression whole life im spot right second im faced lot things coming together potentially disappointing lot people including kids mainly myself feel like shallow pointless useless thing im even sad more im just empty feel suicidal think redflag daily think easy would turn car bridge divider easy would take entire bottle sleeping pills wonder would feel would able actually slit wrists could bring it reasons to many reasons right now hurt would cause people still big priority me want hurt people love made mistake telling husband things think daily hes freaking out feel like theres distinction thinking redflag suicidal really convinced plan except ways think it like ive sat put calendar maybe im denial maybe suicidal want kill myself just want alive more prospect facing future overwhelming feel like can worry point desire hurt people around overtaken desire live asked would tell got point answered honestly know think honestly point caring hurt pain much probably tell him now telling that ive inadvertently hurt him increased worry lot wish hadnt im sorry told him wants sorry tell sooner kind thoughts know know exactly started want think using excuse trump card argument attention seeking thing know want tell him know im posting this feedback feel like low level call hotline something like this like thats people knife hand car bridge someone thinking it way think grocery list chores

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long story short mdd gad bpd since late depression kicking arse suffered depressive episodes years never bad long last depressive episode birth son great success nd ssri tried managed establish good routine get out currently th antidepressant sectioned twice year si intent marginally better getting worse again zero motivation get bed appetite crying etci also intensive group therapy since february really invested end day feel exhausted options way without ending it

sure anymorei brothers wedding coming look forward to that yeah know give up hate planet live on hate people people self centered cruel ive even guilty times hate too im seeing shrink next month maybe help know th time ive entered therapy since first work

another one films remember staying late watch tv scaring crap impressionable age dooming thereafter life horror movie obsession great movie stands living proof indeed realistic effects cgibr br set isolated base antarctica version seems almost pick original version the thing another world left off american scientists discover decimated norwegian base miles distant everyone dead half charred remains unidentifiable thing left smolder outside compound might offer answers may happened thing brought back american base and late scientists realize alive lethal thing thaws off killing anyone anything crosses path also absorbing them making whoever whatever wants film turns brilliant paranoia piece everyone suspect anyone thing one trusts anyone anymore gone strength security found human beings band together spite differences battle monster group splinters fear rules supreme thingbr br the gore effects absolutely amazing messily realistic could done without dogs head splitting open like banana peel thats animal lover picky kill humans want leave kitties puppies alone sanity reason disintegrate rapidly as one one humans taken shapeshifting alien power film lies paranoia although liked original version prefer one real threat lies within scarier fact cannot seen easily detected forced hiding wrath huge results horrificbr br this one carpenters best films right fog halloween actors give strong realistic performances special effects powerful stand main character film something lover horror genre miss it

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better die lose morality need help im point im ready fullheartedly prepared commit redflag planned every detail need im stuck time passes worse feel want die so knows this know do im trying think affect cant even think straight background life never good lot disorders mental illnesses caused trauma born with hard time living life constantly feel like dying old home dangerous new home religious beliefs conflict identity im uncomfortable am theres therapist psychiatrist theyre supposed help think im insane others say im fake liar never even understand myself find trying die lot also realized years become destructive agitated aggressive ive started thinking killing more become something think normally end hurting people lot mean to basically im becoming like parents want like keep failing changing days plan end life days make final decision know best path take die thats metheres nothing left existence everything would gone suffer anything live ill become like them ill continue falling apart someday able resist shitty thoughts anymore know ill act someday know do help

warning long basically describing problems supposed finished first year really good law school told everyone am instead actually graduate student masters legal science less reputed college near me actually applying now lied everyone left hometown go law school moved apartment high schoolcollege bestie works lot engineer moving great idea regret still love her good roommate honestly talks lot life feel like never asks me also good deflecting wish would push little harder ask am tend avoid chill room lot also need time relax also smoke weed almost every day lie it vaping problem hard quit trying lost gramps earlier year difficult favorite man planeti diagnosed adhd generalized redflag disorder bordering depression also prescribed medication never kept with going psychiatrist moved different clinic take insurance like months since still gone another issue think triggered become asshole cousin graduation extravaganza party lot worked lot fucking cleaned vomit managed send teenagers home am ubers closed worked ass never felt appreciated whole moment even worse feel like annoyed everyone so triggered real bad pushed away everyone stuck one talk to really good friends completely stopped talking to time realized id pushed everyone away stopped talking could figure respond still day trying get talk them group friends two stopped talking rest people close with planned trip months ago hotel reservation name discount go would able stay there went felt like everyone hated whole trip last day super bad cried many times secretly day bathrooms lmao then got super wasted cried hours front them one cared really talk hour drive day so right trip ready apologize friends trip happened longer really want talk anyone suicidal want live reason still planet mom could never kill cannot fail her imagine dying getting cancer time want anything lost passion everything know real depressed lie everything want anyone think negatively bc already severe body image issues cannot stand let others thinks wrong besides fact clinically obese push everything off pretty sure rotting tooth could probably get infected kill time gone dentist energy scared also want to need know asshole friends also advice get rut last days smoking vaping go coffee shops work super hard applications also helps left adhd meds finally started feel hope light diet good longer binge eat like used everyday also go gym like times week something feels different time need advice forward problems loser asshole sad

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im upset fathers co worker tested positive whole family quarantine two weeks even test negative school literally reopened last two band shows next two weeks im band hate online school almost failed half classes last quarter suck online learning able talk anyone half year worst thing cant anything even know im posting guys probably downvote mad quarantining

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numb nothing live might goodbyeif button press would instantly end life wouldve pressed years ago ive come realization life never get better never weight want never medication never find someone love me never father didnt molest me never mother dont resentment towards never choice past make choice future one trying come best ways happen shotgun would traumatic around me hanging debating carbon monoxide moms coworker recently ended successfully tips

posting everyday get girlfriend day day nothing today walked steps km posts keep getting removed maybe list list thing today day nothing today walked steps km day nothing make long list thing return soon worries today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km actually impressive walked inside house day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked steps km day nothing today walked inly steps km much today day nothing wrong u jcttt sadly list thing backat least partially day guess what still nothing day weeks day day hai make video bricks day nothing day fuck sorry hmin delay day days untill day still nothing day aaaaaaaa day day nothing day day day guy getting hot me day boys it rasputin million views club day celebrate day celebrate a th aniversary independence iceland kingdom denmark b th aniversary occupation estonia ussr c th aniversary battle vienna american civil war wtf vienna american civil war heard this d th aniversary death pope adeudatus day yesterday chose d im gonna celebrate th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day im hereby celebrating th aniversary death pope adeudatus day day like wood day lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipisici elit sed eiusmod tempor incidunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua day one day one thousand day one million day one billion day one trillion day one quadrillion day one quintillion day one sextillion haha sex this today first walked km m up bicycled km usually struggle both day one septillion day one octillion day one nonillion day i love apache attack helicopters cute day day twjgwuwviqheiqniberuwkgueheikwgwiq day piece dead fly wall bed years now day screw fell chair worried day want provoke someone badly rn day qwertzuiopasdfghjklyxcvbnm day fuck magic eye bot day leg hurts say leg still hurts day need electric shock rn day day day day day day day day day day day absoloutly nothing happens countdown day day day day nothing day day day day day

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mental health deteriorating badlyi getting sicker sicker hard function anymore day day life hard whilst dealing severe mental health issues cant live way want see future even worse today last appointment doctor try best slit wrists

tylenol pills kill youmy boyfriend tryed overdose idk is texted saying took hes responding need know hes asleep

trapped headim year old guy im failing literally classes cant even find motivation check school emails let alone actually go school entire family disappointed sucks siblings successful smart im nothing dreams motivation future even thinking future makes sad got diagnosed schizophrenia year half ago feel like ruined life feel lost alone fucking nobody understands ive tried get support friends good experiences longer try nothing except mental illness anger doubt ill ever able successful judging unstable last years mean cant even tell whats real not much useless get wish someone talk understands everything therapy psychologists make feel even worse feel like theyre testing digging around brain invasive hate family friends could never understand nobody even feel like repost guess want someone talk

generally wake extremely anxious hopeless day goes on tends get better still extreme wavesbouts hopelessness sadness hit like truck makes feel sick occurs random always cannot help feel something physically wrong despite negative blood work mri severity depression fluctuate throughout day

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anyone thinks alone redflag optionin days first month since lost best friend redflag days would turned amazing didnt think really was thought alone one cared told us first time tried eventually wouldnt care one would come funeral two years went am th november got call changed life broke me disbelief got call didnt believe gone got house like would back later day call every one friends listen hearts break broke news them next night went crash site seen done started feel real seen shattered blue car parts everywhere night people stood around tree tears weeks go im reminded littlest things ill see something want message remember heart breaks again tuesday funeral worst day life started open coffin viewing family heart dropped finally real seen almost unrecognisable month old body beautiful best friend every time close eyes think gone image seen haunts me later funeral started listened everyone made impact short life hearts break brother held front coffin walked car every face room looked tears walked cemetery looked back people behind us people hurt cared beautiful man thought one lowed coffin took white rose hole said final goodbyes love fucking hurt everyday go lay grave hour everyday talk things missing looking forward to want everyone remember redflag doesnt end pain passes ones love remains

yes reviewers already stated may vintage lh far worst work th century stupidi mean fox film certainly basic ingredients things go wrong boys serious approach determination makes funny play laughs comedians might take work situation quite seriously essence eternal humor film faced basic issues really might encountered one us today namely job related stress first would get checked doctor would prescribe much needed rest perhaps staying sea thats surrealness comes this lh always take plausible set circumstances exaggerate never point incredible except maybe awhile makes us laugh relate self caused predicaments attempts extrication thats makes stan ollie universal appeal film ingredients presented delightfully artful gracefully slapstick way best comparison earlier work probably actual last film roach wanted mirror big studios go making features exclusively also wanted hurry finish contractual obligation big mistake stayed together continued maybe five years world may missed considering option watch laugh enjoy last great performance

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confessionventocd hope likely hebepedoconfessionvent theres reason im still alive family people care despite absolute worthless dumbass ive done stupid shit past always mind feel guilty angry myself cant fucking forgive did watching catching predator videos youtube october last year ended obsession p stronger ever thoughts since along thoughts yet fucking ignored them confident ocd read pages could relate peoples stories except remembered fucking masturbated images kids twice individuals they individuals attracted younger photos still looked like individuals liked either still barely random year old didnt know fucking ages kids sure still fucking it knew better also masturbated aunt beastiality shit guys looked like girls around age too fucking able masturbate things questioned attracted to part tells testing anxious didnt fucking like or else would still im sure regardless long time ago dont remember events except questioned attracted particular things would test see got aroused maybe fucking able curiosity taboo anxiety horny piece shit would masturbate anything addicted never masturbated fantasiesnever get fantasies unless force think order test reaction compare things feels sickpainful dont enjoy it kid would feel sick liking individuals years younger questioned attracted kid years younger reminded person liked yet fucking dismissed that fucking touched kid like holding hands curious fucking regretted it felt bad lost attraction any focused person actually crush on also remember playing kids starting question too fucking trauma kid took advantage innocence experimented humping merubbing genitals me fucking stuck days would constantly think it question im attracted kids see public especially whove entered puberty test attraction think kids constantly head see im attractedtest reaction get anxious panic see them get groinal responses fucking anxiety caught guard pictures feel attraction along obsessions like lady tramp dog feels different think individuals like fucking avoid kids see person im attracted university question age liked resemble kid brain always tells im p keep trying tell im not total loss im done brain fucking tried telling psychopath lacked empathyremembered shit past except feel empathy got dismissed theres something completely wrong sexually mentally accept that born premature like weeks barely lived immigrated another country amazing family worked hard piece shit person like me died baby younger almost getting hit car everyone high hopes meexcept probably became worst person society tldr brain tries convince im attracted inappropriate things like kids animals like dog family members like aunt grandmother mother brother religious figures past normal things like gender im trans for curious feels different gender wanting try clothes different gender psycho except ive done shit actually show behaviours past theres two things do leave miserable world ill remembered good individual worked hard school dreams becoming doctor get help im get help see hell wrong me im scared happen family dog something happen me id rather live internally suffer stupid curses given family people care dont suffer isnt life me im crying inside everyday want let emotions scream im moody brother keeps pushing limits asking reassurance appearance making obsession worse talking things make feel even upset

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famous international conductor daniel darus michael nyqvist heart attack stressed busy professional life interrupts successful career early retirement decides return hometown north sweden mother left seven yearold sensitive boy bullied conny school mates live lowpaced life buys old school invited participate church choir local shepherd stig niklas falk reluctant shy daniel refuses principle however gets involved community feels attracted lena frida hallgren local woman past local doctor music opens hearts members choir affecting daily life slow tore andr sjberg chance participate choir inger ingela olsson wife stig releases repressed sexuality gabriella helen sjholm takes attitude abusive violent husband gossiper frustrated siv ilva lf opens heart lena fat holmfrid mikael rahm cries enough jokes businessman arne lennart jhkel even daniel starts loving people lena love life invited participate important contest vienna daniel finds music opening heart people making dream come truebr br s som himmelen touching sensitive movie beautiful story impressive director kay pollak screenplay writers able develop great number characters minutes running time performances topnotch supported magnificent music score least two awesome moments gabrielle sings song concert certainly last concert vienna audience jury everybody participating melody daniel making dream come true like teorema stranger changes lives family conservative community further like many european movies open conclusion indicates daniel actually died least interpretation reaching peace success music eyes became wet two scenes vote ninebr br title brazil a vida paraso the life paradise

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gotten worse idk everything getting better better id gotten loosing friends id mostly gotten crush getting bf hadnt cut months hadnt cried weeks started trust people again flipped around returned back havent cut yet ive looked open window way hadnt months ive cried first time couple weeks people keep saying itll get better hasnt years gotten worse idek im supposed anymore

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definitely feel like optionto copy paste thoughts raw gti feel im absolutely going able go nowhere life right even though im eighteen true rights person order get need change anyway knowing parents definitely treat like garbage physically verbally violent towards past cant expect going alive long enough support financially emotionally also cannot feel obligated take separate governmentfamily people directly responsible life capability look anymore suppose means rot financially physically immediately commit redflag want immediately burden anyone previously supported want anything else initiative contribute means potentially parents people around support get agitated attack like parents did think know options allowed have want read anyway thank i want add more feel like also disrespectful look others support journey one deserves support someone family take time busy lives end tried work study immediately detrimental system working in guessed detrimental system people inside system support far knew going focus far enough thanks support guys

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final birthdaymy st birthday coming weeks family going city next day presents excellent opportunity it wanted come too madeup work related excuse stay decade suffered depression ive kept hidden everyone planned way years ago go pain would cause loved ones especially mom depression gone worse ill take step even enjoy playing video games anymore passionate hobby since childhood bought equipment needed go painless way feel relieved ill finally saved pointless miserable existence ps throwaway account real account could tied me

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every day getting worsehey guys created account post without followers seeing mental state in im broken nobody talk friends leave every time talk once girl dreams denied everything hurts thinking redflag much person age worried im gonna something myself

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normal get excited simply things jump around im happy friends noticed get excited little things like lightning fire science army plane flying school ill jump getting excited saying look plane thats cool laugh sometimes flapping arms around even try to tell act like im years old something sometimes make fun thought getting excited little things normal everyone telling

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cant stay functionable two daysnor hopeful matter though hopeful even peace since began freshmen year college first finals week everything feels fake barely find comfort online redflag resources half depression might never get better kill live miserably next years half even worse well need things depression keeps doing keeps bed get bed mean yeah get it could act depression still guess im depressed sake insufferable burden family revel making people mad me argue that sorta treatment developed used actual psychologists hope know better brain works i spent lot money yk guess cant follow probably secretly subconsciously dont want get better bc im shitty person wtv idk whats catch im extra pissy bc havent found anything worth staying considered notterrible future realistically attainable since s im yk feel like crap corner web psychologist country ever able make feel better still feel bc im lazy liar everything get better wont bc ive become complacent wtv last psychologist told me sorry rambling post im crisis bc college life demands act like reasonable human since im unable productive way guess college happening unfortunately dont much option dying bc family going accept living daughter attend college

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went philosophy holethe thing alive completely normal feel pain matter feel happiness content pain there got thinking pain exist reason to universehuman body allowed pain exist normally case logically want life smart enough know way change properties nature would cause live im smart enough know im smart want experience pain anymore experience pretty much key understanding need out

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hate life passioni wanna die dont ever see strong enough get life everything know people cant anymore dont want live dont want get old dont want family kids dont want experience anything life im done hate living ive crying day now think it wish could find easy way out wish virus would take me wish someone would kidnap murder me anything control cant anything im fucking depressed done im alone day everyday one dont care make new friends anything literally dont care damn thing anymore dont give fuck honest let one thing id give anything die obviously need find way life need figure easiest way dont want endure pain dont want to could get enough money get hard enough drugs od on

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weakdo know phrase redflag permanent solution temporary problem cant get job deadend town thats temporary problem right cut ties father hell never satisfied are maybe maybe need vent maybe need way out look pros cons really supportive grandmother girlfriend theyre probably reason committed redflag yet guess weak people problems sr makes special right hate want people give random strangers close wanting give up know like feel worthless broke alone life like throwing shit us one care no thats think feel im tired struggling cant take it

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currentlyi need write everything down hope okay here so wednesday morning finally felt like life settled moment busy felt good kept mind much anxiety suicidal ideation course last long evening school sent opportunity letter students concerning auditions local boys schools production the female roles on life became unbearable again desperately wanted it knew time invest unless significant role i want dedicate months ensemble alright acting necessarily suited part however couple panic attacks finally courage write name next morning thursday everything settling way planned find monologue night start practicing next week again however began panic classmate insisted role involved singing everything felt hopeless again catch break so another panic attack ensued night even worse though list many girls suddenly also signed main role one particularly amazing actor also absolutely perfect part weak filled anxiety cried hyperventilated hour saw name knew shot all guess knew along confirmed it suppose whole time reason upset badly wanted production want become better actress want make friends want experience satisfaction putting amazing play hurt knew start would never get that chance world makes distraught know weak pathetic getting worked this consumed life little issue im feeling waves suicidal thoughts anxiety depression worse before think cross name list late everyone knows pointless go role even friend told that

risk wish could beive long history mental health problems along lines depression ptsd gad part ive lot improvement now say improvement something know exists feel it im done emptied reserves nothing left hate february coming years ago later month came home found bodies husband year old son whole month relive happened starvation financial stress fights boss demanded take break lunch food attempt feb course essay due day commitments day im probably going supportive role someone too many times wish worked told would happy attempt failed think ever been catastrophic failure reason im risk right now nearly crippled life im scared try again cant stand idea something partially working aware whats going around unable act theres nothing sure work except probably would work fuck know it want know boys are want know friends left time doing want shit never have feels like everything systematically stripped me every time act towards interest feel like fall shit makes everything worse everything complicated want peace simplicity position support lot people around feel like imposter im depleted resources need someone take care me anyone tried it would false real would assuage guilt nothing me one cares me ive faced neglect parents abandonment friends best friend murdered child tore away killed himself relationships think theyre mostly people unconsciously acting messed patterns me like im tool theyre using reenact shit theyre trying process matter im thing consequence feelings inherent value days attempted killed son himself imagine burned brain cannot begin explain guilt deal with even tell people every single detail always tell fault happened fucking lying face stronger could stopped it police parents facing work dust settled months later alone totally utterly alone year know must come long way wait im waiting open door again couple weeks ill open door ill find dead again ill hear sirens flying me theres point chest moving no pretty extra fucking sure theyre dead sirens necessary fucking futile yes im pretty sure dead wish like hell them suffer here stage alone wanna stage alone fuck want me

dont love parent cant realize negative reinforcement doesnt work im already depressed anxious already feel like deserve things gonna realize way make things positive reinforcement like go ahead take away phone computer everything dont deserve it gonna make shit gone live without it contrary popular belief life source something stop thinking offing myself

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hello guys first all sorry advance english native language struggling suicidal thoughts months need advice problem advice cope situation would appreciated come middleclass family third world country years ago borrowed savings money family around interested stock markets wanted earn side money higher education parents especially dad checking updates every month money doing techsavvy believes tell him long story short noob lost money could tell lost since huge amount us lied told invested money bucket stocks according current prices stocks told value both bad good luck ig lied have money lose invested index funds thinks worth stocks reality far different although financially well would ask withdraw fictional money thinks have scared shit would find out cannot tell truth lost money years ago would break lied him cannot hold lies anymore too since every month ask updates hurts mentally suicidal thoughts now cannot take anymore cannot talk situtation anyone guilt shame posting using throwaway account advice deal would appriciated thankyou struggling suicidal thoughts advice needed

stop meplease someone stop me want die autoimmune sjogrens syndrome active long im years old dlco pulmonary function test normal feel breathless everyday talking people reading outloud walking leaves breathless probably scarring interstitial lung disease sjogrens recentlt found pulmonary function test took years ago revealed moderately decreased dlco asshole doctor said nothing wrong asthmaif ask pulmonologist asthma doesnt cause decrease dlco may even increase dlco know scarring reversible want die never life working for classes left graduate uni degree biology degree job energy either anymore im breathless fatigued yearning swift death remedy knew way improve state least percent at would willing fight life everywhere look western medicine says im doomed decline im burden society becoming even burden alive insurance one year stuck nothing pay meds nothing pay procedures need do dont money dont energy dont hope end painless possible i hate feeling pain dont expect people actually answer one thats im thinking right now

want diei really see point living anymore im going spend rest life alone friendless ill go work day put good face keep moving career along career im really suited go home empty house waste time fall asleep friends see regularly long distance friends live parents im looking houses right thats do financially responsible thing think could live another year parents im waste space resources theres point alive anymore im disappointment parents even admit themselves im burden world even want risk passing fucked brain chemistry children probably have ive tried exerciise that helped bit ended back here something everything choices actions pretty much determined genetics past im pretty much doomed fail time might try get healthy eeod im lost cause ive watching reading lot horror stuff lately guess because kind wish could get killed monster ghost whatever itd make things easier probably easier family too im probably going kill weeks maybe sleeping pills itd kind nice go sleep never wake up im sorry friends family deal awkward annoying depressing alloftheabove bullshit me im sorry mom amp dad im sorry ali good friends good family ok without me probably better even never even nice except big sister college sorry incoherent ramblings im halfasleep moment im going try get rest another week work

ive seen coen brothers films now say one better films dare say better the big lebowski good rightbr br i thought story interesting hilarious times loved characters especially tim blake nelson delmar john turturros petebr br there really anything bad say movie movie everyone might safe say liked coen brothers films hopefully like one too liked saw trailer think like film hold itbr br anyhow hope liked film much do thanks readingbr br chris

anyone hard time accepting introvert like want cool fun life seems like extroverts also mentally cannot handle life hell cant even go store long without getting seriously exhausted stupid hate hate generally dislike people weird generally positive outlook life people myself wish could accept part

titlei feel worthless discernible live directions goals family hates me money shitty paying jobs mother tried kick day barely left room since dont know im going do ive laying bed wishing could end deep know could never im spineless always been feel broken never repaired im lazy cant anything right always fuck everything up im disgusting want end im tired feeling like every day pretending everything fine im tired happygolucky friend thats truly am despise myself feelings anxiety worthlessness go away feel like never ending cycle wont ever able break away from want go away