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think im donehi name micheal years oldi started using drugs drinking anything get fucked screw push evrybody me lost lot friends good friendsmy mom prostitute found fucked brain problems sexual abuse also fucked brain never told one cant get dark stuff head years cant stand anymore

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sub downvote buttoni depressed well

questions girls subreddit oh my god perfectly fine chat friends one friends said didnt want go school tired asked said stayed late reading said ok continued talking something else then randomly said also period last night couldnt sleep like wtf theres really reason mention that one reason would perfectly fine tired question you think randomly mentioned period unnecessary would make us guys chat uncomfortable

bruh finding job hard moved oh nc literally jobs here like back home many connections went indeed days got jobs here connections indeed months literally got one job job cant pay anything like got bills bruh im looking trades stuff go into theres nobody training straight like gotta associates years experience im like bruhhhhhh im literally tf supposed make sumn literally cant cause theres starting points

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every day feel like constant pain mind shut constant discomfort anxieties dissatisfaction understand expected stay alive want end afraid working know else help hear people life want it wish someone could help think feels unbearable keep going want hear people talk

unsent letter online friend ive gotten use burning feeling settles throat holding back tears time together warped thoughts maybe im hopeless maybe cant let go mistaken last conversation happening much later actually had hit looked back thought talking pity clear now quite understandable wish would given goodbye would hurt less know considered relationship thanks sticking around long did champ ill always consider dear friend

mystery meat school taste somewhat good starving

homophobia likescame closet month ago cue closest friends drifited away me im met hate resentment getting point dont want leave house leave bed part wants end dont endure anymore hatred yet another part scared anything

think worth try reach tiny amount happinessi cant anything im tired trying make failing im going school job cant things anxietys bad want supported mom entire life im fucking useless seeing everyone else good fun makes feel like shit wanna draw try to cant shit cant things want cant write program video edit make music see people around make feel horrible top success people cant happiness never will assuming get anxiety find sucess something im good at never enjoy things way people do everyone sex drugs drink im interested things wanna interested cause people ive looked seems like theyve much them want am want bad im scared idealistic think reach amount happiness others even eventually get better potential shit even reaching happy think want relationships want friends girlfriend able talk people long keep getting worse seeing interact fun makes feel cause cant that feel worse cause im getting upset peoples happiness think im bad person thinking like this see point trying make life get happiness amount happiness reach little especially go pain long little amount happiness garunteed

boyfriend deals knowing im suicidalis normal boyfriend treats like exist pick call like ever in years dating text first ask day answer wanna talk make effort see me last year tried commit redflag one knows it thankfully im okay physically mentally all know fault cant help imagine way treats normal mentally stable girlfriend importantly girl full anxiety pain heal from wrong me act like care

good night reddit good morning good afternoon simply good day

helpi really need someone right now im year old girl feel hopeless someone please

endoscopy years ago safely say basically experienced deepthroating

im suicidal feel die one daytheres redflags parents families baby aunt killed forced abortion grandmother years later mums uncle killed struggled depression mum tried kill found dad cheating her admitted hospital months dad killed girlfriend left him thought better without him midteens youngest brother tried kill struggling everything know redflag left behind still feel like haunting me actually told school therapist maybe kill myself never actually told anyone time anyone would listened me anything hurt right now might sound silly reason living right dog ive seen life like without caring away college him right happiness

wish deadeveryday get ready never finish it one day ill though know people care want continue on

m partner f undiagnosed redflag least think do whatever is taken toll ruined romantic notredflag in rearing ugly head again am i trying place blame redflag need iti obsessively checking partners location using find even know work home sisters etc occurred recently would said was always worries or past partners would go night hang friends drinks get overwhelming feeling going find someone better bring home unfaithful thought makes stomach turn want able tell likely get head think about help current partner bipolar manic episodes sex drive elevated scares even more needs scratch itch around mad get back me this that deep rabbit hole pile crap works retail office job several hours every night try keep busy imagine sneaking work someone else speaking work fairly new job management position already talking moving new store possibly state next step career wise years got obligations make challenging pack move new state happens she lately felt like would willing drop like sack potatoes offer come upits recurring argument never time us always workjust present call every day even days taxing say least talked recently came priorities order are career career relationship mine are relationship careers feels like willing compromise all asked multiple times would willing always know plan yet want give future want considered thinks future seem crazy right icing cake developed little bit weed addiction problem work uncle sam also act like child high try try chill like everyone else high time feel like worry everything elseso yeah act like child high rest time hold everything together sweet sweet release that know point rant confession rant want heard validated maybe look like outsideask questions clarification want feel like redflag ruining life

aloneits weird everyone feels alone unwanted shit like hell ive read shit time time shows think similarly could contribute disease ourselves however many people follow feel same dont think us person think sick need help just drunk ramblings sorry

bite every post open ton bite comments someone explain pls

need advice job interview chipotle hour half position crew member mom says wear slacks think thats formal wear interview thanks advance

know myselfi start first year high school next monday think ill make it within single day ive almost killed multiple times people could care less existed honestly agree more

hey guys im bored guitar broke two weeks ago havent able much music stuff still ukulele thinking cover song dont know cover give suggestions hopefully like people respond pick top comment something good day yall

prescribed something overdose guarantee death today im worried ill itim terrified ill swallow whole bottle moment despair subject loved ones seizures death drawn week

months ago told dad take shelter get cat adopted cats time severe health redflag really paranoid getting sick horrible know would even affect getting cat did got cats petrified kind disease regretted fuckijg much one cats really affectionate towards kept trying show affection cuddling fucking anxious would get sick days later could bear redflag forced dad return them started crying hard cat trying show affection towards months later still cannot get fact still crying every night fuck redflag fucking hate might sound pathetic cat showing affection really means much since hate affection never show anyone irl want cat back sure adopted now hate myself got another cat redflag way less show affection anything hates me ik might something stupid sad hate fucking hate mysself

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using shethey getting mad someone uses make sense saw instagram post said someone uses shethey switch use them like literally say oh yeah bought coat today lots money something like that otherwise apparently offensive someone enlighten makes sense all friend mad says hard respect want understand even makes sense

typing quirks fucking stupid like hell anyone supposed read saying o need s need z a need stuttering messages cute cringe annoying yall like its coping mechanism fuck coping with alphabet tell people use typing quirks motherfuckers throw around word ableist going type annoying ass way put fucking translation so damn annoying

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boring sad tonight take life handsi little say alot say last time remember happy three weeks ago cuddling somebody thought cared me passions evaporated past years hope self actualization disappearing them adult always close grandma dad deadbeat piece shit never around grandfather dead death albeit close cousins mom like part died past year improved much joined wonderful fraternity excelled uni got ideal weight cleaned diet hell started dating stopped while lost virginity found attractive etc everything seemed fucking great first breakup happened realized empty without relationships cue meaningless sex realizing sex fucking worthless without affection got back uni well far lost weight shit hit fan started dating girl seemed wonderful like cared me told promiscuous past behind her sex good told next date night spent cuddling really care much wanted sex needed get experience slept again understandably hurt like mofo really liked though ive breakups actualy loved person before frustrated prospect relationship thing enjoyed gone ehhh like field enjoy enough really happy recently ive undergone bulemic behavior time spent losing weight changing lifestyle healthy gone feels like everything shambles rambling one thing another bulemia straw thats breaking camels back eating simultaneously thing makes feel good makes feel horrible mentally physically went store tonight get rd pint ice cream nobody smiled nobody said hi none brothers time talk me ive noose closet while pup miss me love little self tonight take life hands end it ampxb titles reference favorite russian poem lermontov

takes patience get david lynchs eccentric but change lifeaffirming chronicle alvin straights journey stick it though moves slow straights john deere meets kind strangers along pilgrimage learn much isolation aging painful regrets secrets ultimately power family reconciliation richard farnsworth caps career years genuine performance sad poetic flinty caring sissy spacek matches slow daughter rose pines private loss caring dad rarely modern film preached notredflagly family

life would much easier thinkthis going mess idk else post this format fucked up apologise sometimes cant stop thinking reasons id better dead im barely human cant function like everyone else can im constantly reminded every shitty thing life matter go do ill never able forget this vivid memories every little thing ive fucked up cant get life without self harm thing point boyfriend theres almost nothing life makes happy anymore amp fucking sucks ive tried talk quitting said something want to thats beside point like idk feel lost im trying find something make stop thinking forever amp redflag answer course get temporary release cutting enough amp never be plus ruining life would much easier kill go shit want feel think even exist ill always reminded past experiences like long period sexual abuse amp rape abusive father amp fucked family even live long enough move ill plagued issues rest life get like boyfriend says things like think future itll get better think will things never get better makes happy really enough keep alive next couple years im stuck fucking house know im even writing this im much coward actually end it came pretty fucking close couple months ago course it wish wouldve succeeded

state sub discovered subreddit thought going good teenager related posts boy wrong recently noticed many posts like i asked best friend i told crush like her yeah might true surely tiring seeing thing again yeah wanted share this

something really wrong meso im really struggling moment lots things staying home really messed schoolwork im back school now found grades beginning fall im getting worried final grades good enough ive heard many people tell end world desired feel like is talents skills interests passions decent personality succeed life so grades thing im sort good provides chance getting somewhere idea want future finish school end year still clue all everyone else idea im confused really many friends either ive cut lot family so life lonely lot time deal devastating social anxiety held back many times even caused stupid things last couple days done nothing besides school mostly stayed room looking phone motivation anything anymore used like making videos playing keyboard try feel it even feel motivated play video games anything bad is little hope myself dealing suicidal thoughts couple years though ive set dates never gone end supposed done beginning year scared always im stuck

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fucking troll made actually fucking cut selfit long story want kill first place severe depression social academically future family one biggest hope release songs wanted make eltronic music person stepbystep told illegally download it even bad could put virus pc could easily whipe out somehow deleted fucking hardworking time wasting songs fucking cut self chest knife im actually planning cut deadline redflag thing alot shorter

july ston date im gonna go lake pockets full rocks drowned myself feel change numbness anger go away ill make go away ive tried much happy nothing seems work never meant happy death different also least body cleaned decay water doubt anyone would find me last thing ill post ever write bye hope find happiness failed

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feel restrictedim m nice life overall kinda im confident future feel restricted hate everyone want alone really really want immigrate new start good future still want change want alone hate ppl much tried redflag ive suffering long time cant shit it idk do idk im sad pathetic

tell ive fan star trek tng since kidbr br well sometime ago gave friend mine ds episodes asked himbr br hey man watching lately im done watching tng episodes said well got episodes farscape said ok let try it pretty sure time wont like finised watching tng found greatbr br i episodes viewed show impressed much found childish initially thought another tv show nice adventures regular music little bit different neat special effects though vague impression actors fully get characters skinbr br i watched another episodes thinking eps enough decide like since show started get me got good grasp action wanted see happened next poor crichtonthe rest history br br i think mostly like freedom characters context action unlike star trek everybody slept supposed way much high tech bullshit br br the show got better episode interesting story linewhat say movie like poetry br br i highly recommend it

nowi feel like keep rehashing long story short agoraphobic human interaction go time due fact wife avoiding terrible person conversation gets lost love son deserves much better prozac metropinal still depressed horribly low peak high peaks usually agitation ignorance without large quantities alcohol pretty much ive reached point life insurance worth people like suffering multiple years me still apprehension much honestly always someone around prevented till now really know expect already medicated therapied

options guyz pleaze choose ok choose thank u

feel like evrytime start feel good voice head sounds like like no bitch fucking worthless delusional nobody loves you give up stop trying would anybody love you hideous fucking kill yourself nothing know me know brain cunt would lying said believe sometimes anytime something important brain fights tell just even bother going fail goes on always like this long remember ill go silent become really obedient clean nothing all really beat person get like feel like bug bottom shoe hate essence existence burning raging fire hate eat want sleep stay night take cat naps day want anything time really want much life feel bit place know depression adhd could honestly go live woods rock would flippen great feel like clown like entire existence cosmic joke mistake inner voice bitch f

live hopelessive done things power improve im done remember thinking would get things would better arent ive lived life wrong nothing mitigate fact done cant get want thats clear now dont know else existing til enough people whod impacted death dead point im getting less less concerned offing letting fallout happen ive never wanted hurt anyone sustainable reason continue regret tearing apart every moment every day point cant see honest

well im really considering nowi pretty stupid plan im going probably work ill anyways stopped caring pretty much everything feel like shit see future anyways definitely able exams without breaking anyways

cant mom accept want kill myselfshe son done much better went college right age graduated right age got traditional college experience flunked kindergarten graduated high school graduate college still live parents transferred usc get college experience dumbass overlooking money plus longer years usc commute hour school thanks stupidityhaving college experience desire distant dream impossible point matter do weird moms favorite perfect son yet blind dying bad thing going son much responsible especially financially competent intelligent hes going switzerland job all hes confident enough get married give grandchildren told day suicidal thoughts cried confused obvious really favorite die hope discover much better off

even distraught never get job done suicide mind exploding much redflag outlet relief already called police incident much one extremely hostile towards me triggered left tears already traumatized happened much pain support live alone disabled due mental health know else do desperate redflag even little understand internet good place seek support option called case manager already called crisis hotline national suicide hotline samaritans hotline tell thing get therapist waitlists long six months need immediate help now need someone now anyone know anything anyone could provide sort relief please someone something please read this need help police help me

potatoe famine want mashed potatoes im hungry

im mad context xbox computer use monitor speakers headphone jack controller plugged headset plugged play keyboard mouse minecraft im playing minecraft skywars pretty sweaty kill dude im low hp pearl another island whilst im controller decides slightly move joystick move forward overrides keyboard makes walk edge im genuinely considering spending get controller repair kit fixing

gary buseys best performance nicelyflowing biography since musical background able songs really works always good see fine actor stroud one crickets charlie martin smith wellbr br an best performance gary busey thankfully mr busey oscarnominated this losing jon voight coming home fairly lowbudget flick disappoint great songs mr holly hope made plenty dough busey never popular varying reasons thankfully one great one resume

point go nowin situation redflagim feeling more theres nothing really left me im last year one two strokes left side paralysis right side constant pain central post stroke pain increases sensation movement lost job lost motorcycle lost bank account least figures debt year behind child support still waiting months now decision social security reason im street pity family member whos basically letting squat house hes trying sell feel like loss everything could deal with starting actually seem bad ive done times moving around this pain think can want take anymore va tried several pain killers settling oxycodone worked take pain away made care it drugs baaad mkay cant keep increasing that tried tens hwave both hurt more lyrica pregabalin mgx kinda helps pain still there typing feels like streaks searing electricity shooting arm radiating fingers help like oxyxidone gets high much say break toe work work stop bar couple shots fix toe stop broken get buzz helps broken leg think shots help point simply getting high work im trading one high another getting high legal state means really cheap weed helps moment cant high day want anything really anything anyway struggle walk fall often generally takes xx longer task normally would sink dishes take hours get through ill lucky id break anything know expect this typing seems help ive alone living alone mean almost full year since leaving va hospital staying at job real friends social media outside reddit every day physically mentally hurts hurts lie try sleep hurts sitting shower chair so slip kill myself hurts walk point win situation ive mris cts blood work angiograms heart monitors name it bp great low cholesterol heart great history stroke family non smoker outside weed active lifestyle before stroke neurologist gave up saying tests run happened cant fix it deal it funny got optometrist fitting darkened indoor glasses eyes fine brain fucked up hey heres bandaide ya exist try make next day it hurts get this tell myself never get through may subside compared worse never goes away like blown speaker car matter high low change volume one still crackles piss poor job supposed do something repaired fucking brain brain damage theres nothing anybody it take drugs try get time take drugs order refill time lyrica controlled substance va procedures go through takes time ran wed get refill following tuesday withdraws bad symptoms stroke wishing death brings back bandaide fix takes drugs smoking weed day helped waiting real drugs two days finally slept better still hurts lie there whats worse spasticity spasms waves clenching muscles tightening shaking movement causes pain sensation affects nerves right side causes pain spasms hurt like someone kicking ribs laying down drugs supposedly help win situation do va anti opiates could get oxy again get stronger dose high day drugs drugs drugs wake up take pills make take pills try sleep wake up take pills

seeking advicehow possible live emotional pain normal people unimaginable happened you possible keep living commit redflag something money time would heal thank you hope great day

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countdown end journal survived attemptmy apologies amigos know ive building tension everyone expected grand finale picked xanax script monday took entire bottle took lithium escitalopram handfull advill well entire bottle mucinex dm good measure woke hospital im fucking failure update make new plan

im gender equality hit im gonna pound like like cremated matter gender

im probably going kill self tomorrowim tried want end ive ben depressed long recently gotten worse im curtly college semesters ends thursday fell none talk also dread going back home im tired living family even tough paying college kind hate ben emotionally abusive cant drive im probably going stuck house summer ware else go honestly know much take it

friend middle class dead silent whos stinky whore didnt realize unmuted

u horny teen despite feeling xxx well im gonna give u instructions fuck blanket roll ur blanket ball u done ur blanket feel firm take ur hand center ur blanket push take ur hand put expsed part pull u pushed fuck it

anyone wanna chat im male abit bored im good talking might find awkward

im expendablefor stranger im easily replaceable anyone thats obvious guy match ive talking online week im easily replaceable online friends im easily replaceable friend real life definitely know im easily replaceable talk years found depression act like got better even talks me extended family im easily replaceable barely even know me think im dirty sinner anyway would give shit disappeared immediate family im replaceable would get death im sure would theyre resilient would whole load minds worry wasting money anymore wasting opportunities nice enough give anymore starving street anymore waste resources im festering wound someones leg need get cut off stop existing society better without me

im bored also thinking friday night mean brag got date crush b

losti want make post educate people looked signs redflag because everyone overlooked ignored mine wife affair decided rip family apart ive made many references detailed jokes kill myself hanging rafter tall bridge near live everyone laughs says yeah right even best friend said id prefer didnt ive battling months now ive made decision wife going holiday lover th three days it one knows one paid attention pleas help kills leaving behind month old year old daughter read wifes diary found influencing daughter call daddy pappa simply reinforces fact needed temporary as always been posting sympathy posting people underatand little comments may think funny joke actually request cry help finis vitae around th th ill make sure kids safe home night notify friends neighbors please ignore signs time realize maybe late time passed love forgiveness all gabriel

possesses value endsadly affluence poorness betrayal loyalty love hate mean absolutely nothing coexisting foundations society little evolutionary concepts holds real value alas die biologically left alone without sacred things consciousness thats keeps comforted end really end

hwo deal today dropping sister school home way taxi driver unexpectedly applied brakes mf back glass covered see me applied brakes hard missed crashing him pulled told him watch road drive like ready pick fight anyone world even terrorists came started abusing real dirty front sister wanted say anything back sister want see like that said melee weapon sort taxi wanted abusive front sister said put yourself left metres saw driving like crazy beside make pull lick fight sort thing never happened me random stranger abusing following fight slowed took turn intersection going behind since mf back glass covered see me lost him whole way feeling stomach im home im sort disturbed cant focus anything never happened

clothes uncomfy wtf wasnt living family think id nudist home

want improve lifeany suggestions

im parasite everyone around meim nothing worthless scared stupid socially anxious lazy pos live gfs family free provide absolutely nothing thing work transport vehicles know thats permanent thing im college going th year yearold ive gotten nowhere even know life major desperation move honestly ive seizures im hoping ill blackout die since incredibly peaceful im scared means asian family want disown find im still graduating wish could give something back im worthless anything skills typing fast wpm video games rapping music thing makes incredibly happy hopeless think could succeed talented artists there ive tried applying ton desk jobs require talking strangers i cant even work cash register start shaking forgetting everything is require degree experience both nothing offer really wish could kid ive always dreamed getting poor mother things deserves taking care sister also sucks im deathly afraid her hate many things wrong me even work properly fastfood jobs worked since back gives literally almost collapse hurts bad especially one place give breaks all gone gf would richer guy take care better medical condition along person cant provide anything family even deserve kindness deserve anything ampxb longer block text accidentally highlighted deleted accident detailed honestly matter read stupid post thank taking time day even read sad post great day everyone hope everything goes well all

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itwhats purpose go school get job get wife kids grow old die death catches us matter amazing life live ive suicidal thoughts since like im senior year college least another ahead grad school want pediatric occupational therapy work special needs population whats fucking point family friends dropping left right healthiest people know getting cancer scummiest dwellers continue succeed really see purpose life anymore whole life ive pushed idea away family would heartbroken fuck cares anymore selfish act theres little ones home theyd get it work go numerous times week live fulfilled life seems utterly pointless maybe im missing something here many honestly say waste time energy look stars night helps realize fucking irrelevant one us bigger picture

anybody there need someone talk right nowi need talk anyone please message time talk want feel alone know void fast approaching

currently eating raw bagel havent slept yet need something occupy time with idea im posting im probably gonna get downvoted oblivion idc

get comments please itll worth time need comments

probably thinking dying days timenever happiest memoriesits almost always bad shit happening since primary schoolcounsellors pyschologist help mei hope jump stairs maybe hit headseems less scary falling buildingthe world much autistic person like myselfits years thisi cant take anymorenothing working me

come posts get comments get none serious people made feel even suicidal thanksi see lot posts getting least comments mine got one suicidal ideation serious thank sub making feel even alone pushing suicidal thoughts

always mfs wanna downvote post second post wanna stay silent hate mfs

first saw movie thought sweet family movie rest night next couple days though clever moments funny lines kept creeping back thoughts conversation theres lot going on classic elements farce good character acting wendie malicks story line hysterical labelling feelgood movie belies wit fun smarter seems like its wonderful life is

point incapable getting betterbecause think im far fucking past

world burning really isnt anything live fori feel like theres nothing anymore world filled hate never see humans anymore feel instantly hated feels like world given decided everything shit lets make worse idk affecting you

question girls height matter always wondered friends never answer need know im pretty tall age

seriously care coddit go take walk outside need fresh air fr

sad birthdayi already depressed this rock bottom birthday tomorrow got broken summer plans girl thought loved gone literally friends nobody cares birthday mum wish could die right

failing college know do long post yo repeat exams im sure failed them second time im sure get college majority friends gt people left city countries parents live km away anyone give good reason end now friend left im tired time im fucking failing every aspect life exercise eat properly try get early nights cant ever feel happy social life one talk to future college air feel like im stuck mud everyones passing by apologies upset anyone

waiting find perfect methodi year old loser looking right way go out school two years yet complete semester depression symptoms always get better find struggling get bed unable go class work ive almost failed threee times im hopelessly love girl love back social anxiety makes practically impossible talk anybody else ive tinder two straight months matches absolutely nothing could considered attractive opposite sex im fat hairy short acne bad teeth small penis selfconfidence reasons never much held hands girl nobody would even fathom concept might like me major symptom anxiety often unable come something say general conversation left constant state awkward silences feel though friends starting get tired it family life shit nobody family talks left intermediary dozen different groups become overwhelming ive found shutting different family members top off able get job two years interviews go conversations awkward silence nervousness it success school love life social skills family life marketability jobs perfect equation total loser future searching perfect method redflag relatively painless mainly clean quick want stop blight humanity let successful people around get lives without dragging down need end

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film expected little from watched pass quiet hour hour turned be roll excellent nonetooserious little story countryboylostinthebigcitymakesgood funny throughout characters endearing pace rightbr br toby malone true star film endearing portrayal matt said country boy local aussie rules football hero come big city try one big teams supported superbly john batchelor local gangster tiny watch twobr br highly recommended

losing fucking marbles im going ranti want start saying bait im fishing attention posting really need rant calm down thanks ahead read this know going lot dad always thinks talk shit bathing self pity like way get attention fucking not im slowly surely going fucking insane know dad thinks excuse half ass alive cant help it really im trying even went therapy took meds gave really cannot see point keep trying nothing working kind getting better little trying avoid triggers like certain people situations ive found sheltered real world intense urge kill keeps coming back matter hard try switched bottle desperate attempt smother intense impulses counter productive would end miserable drunk made redflag seem justifiable get angry least im angry im sad least years would sad im sister time got molested front baby sitters son could feel ashamed anything mom would cry drunk mind father left her little game would play called bird says dont cry would lean say dont cry thats think now shit happened young keeps coming back boiling anger aimed particular direction talking helps much thing keeping going family mom bipolar drug addict brother angry nothing plus hes slowly surely developing extremely intense alcohol problem try cope everything brother recovering drug addict sister best friend kept going dark ass times shes strong tarnish selfish reasoning know shes got lot shes repressing whole family brink besides dad happy live blissful ignorance situation cant throw board myself wouldnt fair god damn getting hard keep going thank read this side note dont mean ripping family love rant

im loser virgin mid s world favor dieeven people may say otherwise people favor killing soon absolute loser work low paid job failed school im retard ive single friend entire life im also s tried dating made fun women especially made life shit growing up glad hear ive finally removed world blame honest ive different types therapy years nothing made even one second bearable must die ensure nobody acknowledge disgusting existence anymore kind thing die make sure cause pain disgusting existence trust me people knew child right treat like shit loser pathetic piece shit myself treat worthless turd anything better is im glad everybody knew treated like garbage garbage treated people even told kill myself agree wish could cause pain wanted die end life

one thinks dating stupid like put much time effort every day lmao also calling lonely argument

cute nah basically idea girlfriend im going dedicate notebook write every time hang out im going say day was did felt thinking know whole shabang well year im going give along favorite flowers favorite candy dont lot money cant get big fancy gift thought cute want feedback it ideas revisions

paper life good acknowledge lost willpower try anymore really feel like purpose life smoke weed time feel something go weird cycles get super depressed feel back normal ill get super depressed bc noticed pattern really feel like getting depression fuck would want crash burn inevitably start feeling depressed give fuck anymore

malware clicking image ads youtube iphone youtube clicked one annoying ass ads beneath video shows image redirects site dont remember site seemed sketchy news article something way iphone could gotten virus malware clicking ad getting site

think aftermath death people life dont think theyve treated mei abused neglected mistreated entire life every antiredflag thing get told always level think youll leave behind fair parents treated terribly frankly huge part im fucked up think theyve never expected fix way treat me

parent help hey guys teen suffering adhd wondering comfront parents it dont believe exists got medically tested back since then parents refuse give medication tell real problem starting make feel like garbage pile help appreciated

want stop right nowevery single day night overthink everything analyze hate everything am dont know supposed get better honestly dont think ever will cant unthink thoughts realizations ive had want dont know how im tired feeling way burden wish never existed unfortunately did used scared death realized really dont know whats gonna happen die im going die eventually anyway fear much

bruh talk ft girl feel like im boring af

someone else it want die also want livelike would het killed would fine it would care get killed would mind eighter selfharm without real reason where cut yourself feel like sad sad also happy wanting die also wanting live

one last postive posted times lost track got better mother still narcissist dads still barley ever around even anger issues friends would still much better without me still nobody loves me im still horrible personim still lonely im still sad still anxiety im still ugly waste space still fault molested im still tired this sunday am im going take gun put bullet skull week goodbyes storing wisdom might friends making wills redflag notes unless someone talk week im done

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